I am hard on myself – and I know that I need to learn to forgive myself just as our Father forgives me. Our God is so merciful. He can forgive the gravest sins if the sinner is truly sorry… and yet, as humans we struggle with forgiveness of ourselves and others.
I look back at my life and I know that I have tried to live a life without regrets and according to God’s will. I have always tried to seek forgiveness from those I have wronged and have prayed for those that have hurt me. But somehow, in the midst of my life, I have been completely unable to forgive myself.
I have struggled with my weight as an adult. I am carrying more weight on my petite frame than I ever have before in my life. I’m saddened, angry, disappointed, scared – the gamut of emotions runs through me when I think about what I have done to my body – the temple God blessed me with for my journey on earth.
But, I have not come to forgiveness or love. I have not fully circled the emotions and made it back around. I am wondering if I learn to love my body regardless of my weight, will I find a peace I have never experienced before? I am going to start a prayer journey asking God to help me forgive myself.